Wow. Sorry to hear about that happening.

Hopefully things get better for you. And you say you fought in the U.S. Army? Well I have the utmost respect for you. Anyone that fights for their country and for the safety of their people is an honorable person to the highest degree.
I've always wondered what to do if I meet someone in the military that I respect a whole lot. I know you're supposed to salute to your superiors and I've always thought about doing that when someone who fought in the Army/Navy/Air Force came across my path. I just don't know what the proper thing for a non-military person to do to show their respect to a member of one of the Armed Forces. Strange question I guess, but I'd like to show my respect to anyone who serves their country, especially my own country, the United States, and I'd like to make sure I did it right.
And like I said, hopefully things get better for you, and I don't think you need to worry about people judging you about that here. Most of the CSS players in the strafeRight community are great people. I say most because I can't vouch for everyone, but you can be sure that a great majority of strafeRight members are some of the coolest dudes you'll meet on any forum or server.